I received my post surgical biopsy report yesterday and much to my surprise it was inconclusive. It stated that the specimen did not survive processing. Of course this was very disturbing to learn. I have since learned that this occurs for various reasons, not always within human control. I have to believe that my doctor’s initial observation of a herniated muscle causing the lump is correct. I just cannot subject myself to additional surgery right now, and continued surveillance will be vigilant of course. This is where my faith rubber hits the reality road, for sure!! My follow up appointment is in another week.
Got the letter in the mail from the medical center’s radiology dept. yesterday, with the finding: “Possible malignancy – schedule biopsy through your surgeon”. Does everybody’s scare include a letter like that even if it turns out to be benign? There were about 10 choices with little boxes beside each one stating things like “Please retun for additional views as your films are not conclusive enough for a thorough reading”, or “looks like a benign nodule, call for follow up in 6 months”, etc…but mine was the very last box on the page. I felt like falling apart but I didn’t. I put the letter in my filing cabinet and shut the drawer. Don’t want my kids to see that. I guess I already knew the news, but this was the first time I’d seen that word…malignancy. It’s never had a good reputation.