Today is Thursday and it’s been a good week of feeling totally normal, doing all my normal everyday activities, and catching up on things like laundry and housework. I have been a little more tired than usual but have taken short naps to energize myself. Getting use to wearing a wig and hats is a challenge, especially on a very blustery day like today! Somehow I just can’t shake the idea of that shaven head underneath it all, but I’ve managed to fool a couple of friends who didn’t know I had lost my hair 😉 I guess I look more natural than I feel. Actually it is kind of fun going from short hair to long hair all in the same day, if I feel like it ! I enjoyed a night of bunco with friends, and felt very comfortable in their company. It felt good to laugh and share with each other all the things going on in our lives. There’s a level of comfort knowing that life continues to unfold, kids have their up and down days of school, and we gather at the dinner table to bond as a family. Friends get pregnant and share their happy news, others talk of upcoming vacation plans. This is what it feels like to fight cancer….to know that no matter what, it won’t consume our conversations and our daily activities, and that taking pleasure in the things we enjoy is like saying “You can’t beat me down, Cancer!” I have taken and filled several jewelry orders this week and have felt great about resuming my business (as I am able). It is a wonderful opportunity to work from home but to know that I can “put on the brakes” if I have to. I feel incredibly blessed by notes of encouragement via e-mail or in the mailbox, flowers delivered, meals brought by, or just a phone call to say how are you feeling? I am surrounded by an army of supportive friends and family who are helping me get through this fight. It is a fight sometimes to resist the emotions of sadness, pity or anger, but my army “says” press on – you are strong”!
Romans 8 :35, 37
” Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Christ who loved us.”